Tuesday, April 10, 2012

chaotic is the norm

Here's my sleeping beauty on day six of existence. He scrunched up his face at the flash. I was watching Celebrity Apprentice the other day and noticed Donald Trump make that same face. Here's hoping Brandon grows up to be a billionaire, as well. I can already tell he'll have better hair.

After a few days of trial and error, Steve and I were determined to get a schedule down and return to some sense of normalcy. We have been barely sleeping since Brandon sleeps all day and is awake most of the night. Last night I took the night shift while Steve slept and Steve took the morning shift while I slept (yes - for those of you who caught that, that means I'm not breastfeeding anymore. Please no judgments, I already received that from my pediatrician's nurse yesterday. Long story short - it just wasn't working out for many reasons; I won't gore you with the details).

We forced ourselves to eat three meals during the day since we had been forgetting to do normal things like eat and brush our teeth. Today was the first time I left the house since returning to it. I just ran a couple errands, but it felt good to realize there was a world outside of our little nest here. I called to check in on my boys while I was out. Oh my god, I'm becoming that mom already and it's only day six.

6 comments:

Sarah Anne said...

You are doing great! :) Making some decisions is tough - but only you and Stephen know what's best for your little family. We have been there and done that. (Elizabeth and Meghan were bottle babies - which is nice for being able to get out of the house by yourself - which can give you some sanity ;)
Love you guys! :)
And, love the updates! I can't wait to get up there and see him!

Jo-Anne's Rambling said...

Nothing wrong with not breastfeeding I didn't breastfeed any of my girls for very long in fact I bottled feed them expressed breast milk for between 8 and 10 weeks I had a lot of problems breastfeeding.....yes we get told we are not doing what is best for our child but I think as long as our child is happy and healthy then we are..........

Anonymous said...

I had a breast fed and a bottle fed baby.....they both turned out pretty wonderful if I say so myself. YOU are the mom....not the pediatrican's nurse.....YOU do what is best for you and your baby!!!!! You are doing great....it takes time to get the schedule down, and as soon as you do Brandon will change it for you! :) I love you all. God bless you and your fmaily! - Aunt Carol

melinda sue said...

we all become THAT MOM. that mom we swore we wouldn't become. that mom we passsed judgement on in our pre-mom days. that mom we are scared to death of becoming more of... and eventually you realize you are a mom, and becoming exactly what you are meant to be. and you smile on other stressed out haried moms at the store, the same ones you passed judgement on before, knowing some non-mom is judging you now with the the exact same eye.

just wait until he can make a huge fuss at the restaurant, and you become THAT MOM. it is the worst. sometimes you can not make it out the door fast enough.

melinda sue said...

ps... you are doing great! only you can know what is best for your family, and ignore anyone who tells you otherwise. as it turns out, we have been right for years... everyone else sucks.

melinda sue said...

pps... i remember one day in the first couple weeks, when i was home alone with asher and i managed to get us both washed and clothed and my teeth brushed, and it was the most accomplished i had felt in what seemed like forever. we were both clean and dressed, and i did it all by myself! then i probably took a nap out of sheer exhaustion at the task.

when matthew would come home form work while i was on maternity leave he would ask, "what did you do today?" and usually my answer was... "nothing" some days i was so proud to answer, "i took a shower."

life with a baby is different. blessed, and happy, and joy filled. panick filled, worrisome, and brain dead... but so good. different, but good.